Hi just posting again. i have left my boyfriend because i just cant cope anymore. I asked if we could do something special for 11th Jan (EDD) and he asked what for? I said EDD and he said why would you want to do something. So that there was a breaking point for me. I have turned to my mother for help and support and am now seeking help. For my lil boys "remberance day" as my mum likes to call it I am heading off to Sydney for the day by myself. I'm going to wear no mascara and feel what i feel. I am going to set some balloons off (thanks lyn) and write a letter to him. My mother is buying me a pandora charm braclet and i'm going to buy a lil B which stands for a will honour my Baby Boy Brayden. I'll let you know how it goes. x