Hi Emma - I have read your post and could not pass by without replying.
I am terribly sorry for all 3 of yoru losses. May your litle angels always watch over you form heaven.
I have too had a termination when I was 19, and also have broken up with my partner at that That time ? I just could not handle being next to him. I hated him with all my heart for not wanting our baby. And also hated when people told me of my age. Things like that hit you even harder when you are young, because you are no experienced enough to cope with them. It has taken me almost 3 years to get over the loss and the guilt until I fell pregnant again. I was on top of the world, until mu bub has passed at 11.5 weeks, which has made it absolutely unbearable ever since. We have also almost split up with my (ex) partner, mostly because of me not coping and him not understanding, and him not coping with me. It has been almost 4 months and I?m still suffering. There are some days, when I think that I have moved, and many times, when I wish I will never wake up in the morning, but I am hoping it will pass. We still have many years ahead of us and many more chances to make perfectly healthy babies. Thinking of you
xoxoxo