Not Again.....

**rufalina** · February 1st, 2009, 12:30 PM

Why oh why did I pee on that stick. Stoopid evil pee sticks...

I was pretty sure I was pregnant, so Friday I POAS and yep there it was!!! So cool, I was still waiting for the return of AF after finishing breastfeeding my son. How lucky am I. So I am booked in for a dating scan in 2 weeks, as we cant be sure how far along I am. And I hadn't told anyone yet, and I want to make sure before getting to excited...

Because less than 24 hrs later I started bleeding, and knew it was over... again....

I went through this 3 times before I got a sticky pg with my DS.

If I hadn't peed on that stoopid stick I would never have known, and today I would be excited. AF is back and I get start to TTC. Instead I am sad and disappointed that I lost another precious angel.

How many times do I have to go through this?

**briggsy's girl** · February 1st, 2009, 12:32 PM

RUf i'm so very sorry hunny - i wish i could say something more profound but it's just not coming to me - know you're in my thoughts babe

huge hugs

BG

**Tegam** · February 1st, 2009, 12:37 PM

That is so sad, i am sorry that you have lost another dream!

**MrsB26** · February 1st, 2009, 12:55 PM

Oh Ruf

You have offered me so many comforting words during my losses and i wish i had a way with words like you do. I am so sorry you have lost another precious angel baby, i am thinking of you and crying with you also.

**csab** · February 1st, 2009, 12:58 PM

I am so very very sorry Ruf, you are in my thoughts. I wish there was something I could say that could make this easier for you, but I know only to well that there isnt. I pray that the next time you get a BFP that it is that much wanted sticky sticky one. hugs

**Sequoia** · February 1st, 2009, 01:01 PM

Oh Rufi.

***Nikki*** · February 1st, 2009, 01:13 PM

Oh no rufi ... huge

coming your way .... thinking of you hun

xox

**Laranna** · February 1st, 2009, 01:14 PM

Oh Ruf hun

**butterfly_warrior** · February 1st, 2009, 01:50 PM

Ruf, I'm so sorry. Please don't beat up on yourself for peeing on that stick... You know your body and you've been through this often enough that I think you'd have just known anyway.

At least that's what it was like for me - I didn't need no pee stick or blood test to tell me when I was losing another one, I just knew.

I'm so very sorry that you have to go through this again. It's just not fair!

BW

**rufalina** · February 1st, 2009, 02:14 PM

BW, I know what you mean, but I kind wish I could just bury my head in the sand on this one... But then knowing gives me an ability to have closure... Catch 22...

Having all you girls here for me means so much. Thank you all.

**Snacks** · February 1st, 2009, 03:34 PM

I'm so sorry for your loss, Rufalina.

**Joeve** · February 1st, 2009, 03:52 PM

Ruf I am smothering away some of your pain with a giant

and lots of

**S'rose** · February 1st, 2009, 04:02 PM

Oh you just wouldn't believe it... I had this thought that you were gonna be pregnant when I see you this month. My heart is absolutely aching with you...
Oh hun... there are no words for how crappy the loss is - evil poas or not.

You have my heart and arms and tears sweet one.
This just sucks.

**~Kim~** · February 1st, 2009, 04:39 PM

Oh Sweetheart,

I'm so sorry.

**~breeze~** · February 1st, 2009, 04:51 PM

Oh no Ruf, I'm so sorry hun, life can be so cruel sometimes

I wish there was more I could say or do to ease your heartache & pain right now, but I will give you a massive

as I cant think of the right words....

Dont be angry with yourself that you POAS, as you said, you already knew, the HPT just confirmed it.

Praying that you get an extra sticky BFP real soon hun, I know that doesn't & wont make it any easier or better but I just dont know what to say....

Thinking of you
xxx