I'm so sorry for your loss You are certainly not a failure, and you are certainly not a fraud for letting others be joyous.

I lost my first angel and never miscarried naturally. I chose to believe that my body wanted that baby SO MUCH that it refused to let it go.

As for others being joyous about your pregnancy, well that just goes to show how much love that baby already has. Even though this baby is not for this world, it's nice to know that it is leaving surrounded by so much love and joy for ever existing in our world. That's a special thing to be cherished.

I believe that the "spirit" or "soul" that is to be your baby is just waiting until you have created a perfect little body for it to inhabit. This little body wasn't perfect, so your "spirit baby" will wait patiently until there is a perfect body for it. Then it will grow strong in your nurturing body until it's time for your precious baby to be born into your arms ♥