I have had a really sad day today. I put together the memory box for vanilla, Murray and I both wrote a letter to Vanilla and I put in all bits and pieces that we had bought for him, flowers and cards we were given, my BFP POAS.

I got through last week at work without breaking down, but I am a wreck today, have been crying non-stop. I am so angry, angry with God and the world. I just dont know how to move on, I dont want to move on. I just want my baby back in my belly