Bec - you will get through..... I am glad that you and DH are going together. It will help more than you know. It's amazing how much more honest you can be with a counselor, and how they are able to elict things from each of you, that you wouldn't get yourselves. I just wish you didn't have to be on this journey in the first place. That is my one true wish. But the other is that you go gently on yourself as you learn to live life as a bereaved mother.