I feel I need o write my story down, just to get it out and stop being superwoman and start grieving, I just don't know ehat to do. My story..
My scan at 13 weeks showed no heartbeat and the baby had died at 8 weeks, a missed miscarriage.
The day before the ulrasound, I got a call from my doctor saying I had a werid antibody result in my bloodtests & I needed to be re-tested as it was an anti E which meant the baby possibly had a different blood type and I was tryig to fight it. After the ultrasound, result, all I could think was it was my fault, my body had done this.

My curette was a difficult day, 4 days later. Got to hospital at 10am, sat there till 4pm. Checked every hour what was going on, and all we heard was "delays"or "emerganicies". Got to the ward at 4pm to hear, where have you been? We've been waiting since 10am for you. Anyway, theatre was at that stage at 6.30 with all the delays. They had to insert to tablets so you dilate for the surgery. Surgery got delayed till 9pm. At 8pm I started craping and bleeding, heavily. Theatre got delayed till 11pm. Bleeding and cramping got worse. Theatre got delaed till 1am. Now full on contractions. Nurses got fed up and took me down an 12.45pm. Next day was so dizzy and weak from blood loss, blood tests taken to check for blood transfusion, came back "borderline" went home at 2pm. Day surgery was supposed to be 10am, home by 5pm!
The pathology results were so not what we expected. We expected the antibody to be the cause, but no. It was a very rare partial molar pregnancy. (My dr has only ever seen 3). A molar pregnancy is where the diving cells misshap, and the placenta forms like a tumor and grows like a cancer. But it doesn't end there. The curette I had needs to be followed up with blood tests to enure all was removed (see if I have any HGC hormone levels ). If I do have any levels, it means the placenta is growing back and another curette is required. It can also spread to other bodyparts like cancer, but is 100% treatable. and is treated with chemo. Even though it is very rare, there is a 1 in 100 chance of it happening to future pregnancies. Cause is two sperm fertalizing one egg.
The anti E found in my blood was originally thought to be the cause to to baby having different blood type, was only a small amount, so it still can affect future pregnancies, but worst case should be a jaundice baby with the levels I have.
I just had my blood test to check the hormone levels are hopefully zero. If they are low, it can men they are still dropping from the pregnancy an need to be repeated to ensure they are coming doen and not going up, as going up would mean the placenta is regrowing. Ibawled my eyes out the whole time.
I came home to my 2 boys who are the light of my life, and people say I am lucky to have them, which yes I am so lucky, but it's also sad, because I know what I am missing out on.