Ellie, I so understand how you feel. Everything you said in your last post, I find it running through my own head all the time. I don't have any words for you because there are no words. There is nothing anyone can say to make this pain better for you. But I can offering you understanding and hope that you can take some comfort knowing there are some of us out here that know exactly how you feel.

Keep going on that journey to be a mum, this all wouldn't be so painful for you if you weren't meant to be one.