Oh Sandy my heart is going out to you hun
I've been lurking around and am sooo sad to read your post.
If you ever need to have a chat, please pm me. We are all here for you in this time of need.
Please take care and try to make some time for you.
I too am lurking around the assisted conception threads trying to get my head around the whole thing for when we start in May, so I will be right there with you.