babyfever - I have seen a few of your posts over the past few weeks so it makes me really sad to be reading this one today.

Life is just cruel sometimes. I've had 2 x m/c and it is just something that no-one should have to go through. For me the pain will always be there but I have just learnt how to cope from day to day. My first m/c was nearly two years ago and I still get sad and upset when I think about it. I agree with you though, i didn't want to get pg again to make up for our loss, I just wanted that baby back.

I had a d&c after both m/c because they were both incomplete (second was missed so I only knew I miscarried when I went for u/s). I was really scared the first time as I'd never been under aneasthetic before but it was ok. Second time I wasn't scared I was just devastated.

I've since done some tests (to find out 'why') and the only thing found was a uterine polyp which was removed, but that still may not be the reason I lost those two bubs. Hopefully this time we're third time lucky but I still worry.

Sending you a million . Don't set yourself a time limit, just take each day as it comes. You'll find you will eventually have a more good days among the bad days... they will become more frequent and more happier but it will take time. But you will always have a special place in your heart for your angel.