Dear babyfever,

I am so sorry for your loss of little baby bean. I just really feel for you and wanted to send some big hugs your way, because I know that you need and deserve them!

I also wanted to extend my deepest support that there was nothing that you did wrong. It's easier said than done, I know. I spent an age trying to work out what I could have done differently when I had my loss, but ultimately, sometimes, these things are just unexplainable.
When I fell pregnant the second time, I didnt realise for 6 weeks (irregular cycle etc). During this time was Christmas and NY. Champagne was drunk, soft cheeses eaten to the max, and somehow, my little buddah bub leila made it. When i did the pregnancy test and realised I was pregnant I had all this fear of losing her and losing another baby, but as the weeks went on I realised that some bubs just make it, and it made me feel more at peace with my first loss. there was nothing that I did wrong, she just wasn't meant to be (i also had a feeling about the gender!).

Your 'little bean' will always be in your heart. No-one can take that away from you! Give yourself time to deal with this in the way you need. And be rest assured that us girls (and guys!) will be here to support you and share your journey. and also, you are one of the strong ones. you don't have to hope, just know.

Take care xx