Thanks TwinSister. Its nice to hear from someone who actually gets it.

DH absolutely won't budge on TTC. Instead he thinks I need to see a psychologist which has really made me mad. He doesn't understand that its what I need. I am a little worried of the effect of that on our relationship because right now if th?re's not a chance it will make me pregnant again then I don't want to know. The other day I almost told him to either start trying again once I'm all good or get out. Harsh I know, and I managed to keep it in, but it doesn't seem right to feel that way.

*sigh* Prob doesn't help things that I'm only day 6 of NO sleep. I was up until 3.30 this morning just trying to make myself tired watching TV, reading etc. Crawled into bed at 3.30 when DH finally came looking for me and stared at the ceiling until it was almost light. Drifted off for maybe an hour, had horrible nighmares about dead babies and then DH woke me up when he got up to go to work.

I just can't cope with this lack of sleep. I'm meant to be finishing my uni application off today but I'm so afraid of making a mistake because of being so tired.

Oh well.