At the moment I feel like I am going totally crazy!

I had a m/c around 3 weeks ago which hit me harder than I thought it would, the fact that I had trouble conceiving and problems throughout the pg made the whole experience very traumatic. I posted on BB shortly afterwards and got some lovely replies and support, thank you.

I thought I was starting to feel better but really I'm not, I'm actually wondering if I am worse now! It seems everywhere I turn there are pregnant women and new born babies - they are seriously everywhere and it's driving me crazy. On the one hand I am really happy for these women on the other I am so sad and angry that I am not sharing their joy.

Because it has been a few weeks since the m/c everyone now expects me to be fine and great and carry on as normal, and I am trying so hard to do this but it is just so difficult! I work FT and study PT and have exams at the moment, my first one is tomorrow and I am so stressed! Exam time is stressful enough without the added emotional baggage I'm carrying. I keep telling DF that I am still so upset about everything and that I'm not coping and he just keeps telling me not to worry and that he was always really stressed at exam time too.... It's not just the exams that are bothering me!!! I feel like everyone has forgotten what I have been through and how difficult it was and still is for me. No-one wants to talk about it, no one seems to care anymore because they think by now I must be over it. I'm not over it!!!!

Is it normal for me to still feel this way? I know I am under a lot of stress at the moment but I am still so sad about everything that has happened. I just want the world to stop for a few minutes so I can get myself together!! Normally I am so strong and positive and now I just feel like such a mess. I wish I could stop feeling like this.

Hopefully the exam stress is magnifying everything and once I get through this next week I will start to feel better and sort myself out some more.

Sorry for being so selfish, I know everyone has gone through such heartbreaking experiences and I am so sorry and sad for all of you. I just needed to vent before I really went crazy!

Fi