Firstly

Secondly - you did not fail your babies, nor did you fail to keep them safe. If you did, then so did I (and let me tell you - I have had this thought many times lately) There is a reason that we just don't know the answer to yet. But you will. And you will get the answers you need.

The failure of the BHCG to fall is an issue your FS should have been following more closely due to your very relevant history of retained products. Having said that, for some women it is only during pregnancy their NK (and some other blood results) are abnormal so it may have some positives when meeting with Dr S. I wish I was able to meet you on Thursday and give you a real hug but if you need anything give me a call.