Oh sweetheart I'm so sorry

You said a couple of times in your post about how you failed your babies. I know you feel that it was your fault, but it wasn't. You gave your babies all of your love, and concern, and you nurtured them while you could - no baby could ask for more.

You need to stop blaming yourself about it - there was nothing you could have done differently. Your DH and DS need you now, and you can help each other get through this horrible time. If you take nothing else from this post, please remember that it was not your fault. You did not fail your babies.

Don't forget how many beautiful women here on BB want to help you, and feel free to PM me any time.