i know waht you mean about the questions going through your head.. I know in my hed that nothing i did caused this to happen but deep down in my heart it feels like it is my fault, and i have been through every single little thing. I even got to the point i was convinced it had happened because i got sunburnt. my thoughts are just not logical at the moment.
we opted to have the post mortem on our little girl because i cant stand the thought of not knowing for the rest of my life. but i have now been told that chances are they will not have any answers. i think the not knowing seems to be that worst bit right now.