OMG i cant believe that they treated you like that.
I never asked for any testing to be done on Kyarna, i was offered it, actually everyone i spoke to kinda said the i should have it done. After the Post mortem was done, Kyarna was cremated and her ashes were sent back to me local hospital along with the hand/ foot prints and photos that they had taken before the tests were done.
I am really sorry that you were treated like that at such a vonerable time.
I cant say if you will blame your self once the results are back or not because we have not reached that stage yet.. we still have 6 weeks to wait for our re****s.
I really hope that they are able to tell youw aht happened so you can stop blaming yourself ( i know i am a hypocrit lol) Just take it easy and remember that you need to do what ever you feel is right for you and your little family... no one else matters!!