Thankyou all for your quick replies. In some ways i feel ungrateful feeling this way as some people struggle so hard TTC and others suffer such tragic losses. I feel much better this afternoon after a wonderful day in the son with my little boy. I think I may have just been feeling a little extra emotional this morning.

I think a few extra smiles from my litt;e boy is probably the best coping mechanism there is_ he melts my heart.

I am also sorry for the loss of each of your angels