wishing i didnt have to do this!

[DoubleK]

well, im really not up to typing the whole story.. but i need to let some feelings out.

i found out yesterday that i was pregnant, which was great! we weren't TTC, so it was (another) surprise, but welcomed!!

i had severe cramping, and today i have been bleeding. we had an ultrasound at the emergency department(which they tell me is a very basic scan, nothing like a regular scan at a radiologist) he was unable to 'find' anything, but has referred me to a radiologist in the morning, for a proper scan.
My hcg(thats right isnt it?) levels have dropped since yesterdays blood tests, so i have pretty much accepted that we have lost our baby, but the doctor said to relax until tomorrows scan, and that will give me a definite answer.. bless her for being so caring and thoughtful of my feelings

i want to have this scan, but i dont think i can watch the screen while they try to 'find' a heartbeat

i have been feeling nauseaus all day, which i kind of thought might be a good sign - that was untill we got the blood test back.. im still queasy, but i am not getting my hopes up!

i will update tmorrow after the ultrasound.. thank you for reading if you got this far!!

[Ellibam]

rach im sorry to hear your going through this now!
you know we are here for you!

[Jas]

Rach,

I am so sorry to hear that, I truly hope that you will get some good news tomorrow sorry again

[Arimeh]

Awww Rach, huge :hugs: for you hon...
I truly hope you get good news tomorrow and come and tell us all good news.
We are all here for you.

[snowie]

I'm so sorry for your loss
Sending lots of :hugs: your way

[Trish]

Rach, huge hugs huni. Sorry to hear that you are going through this. I pray that your scan today gives you some promising results.

[Anthonysmom]

Rach - praying that you get good news.

Barbara

[~Kim~]

Oh Rach, I'm so sorry to hear that.