well, im really not up to typing the whole story.. but i need to let some feelings out.

i found out yesterday that i was pregnant, which was great! we weren't TTC, so it was (another) surprise, but welcomed!!

i had severe cramping, and today i have been bleeding. we had an ultrasound at the emergency department(which they tell me is a very basic scan, nothing like a regular scan at a radiologist) he was unable to 'find' anything, but has referred me to a radiologist in the morning, for a proper scan.
My hcg(thats right isnt it?) levels have dropped since yesterdays blood tests, so i have pretty much accepted that we have lost our baby, but the doctor said to relax until tomorrows scan, and that will give me a definite answer.. bless her for being so caring and thoughtful of my feelings

i want to have this scan, but i dont think i can watch the screen while they try to 'find' a heartbeat

i have been feeling nauseaus all day, which i kind of thought might be a good sign - that was untill we got the blood test back.. im still queasy, but i am not getting my hopes up!

i will update tmorrow after the ultrasound.. thank you for reading if you got this far!!