I understand how you are feeling. I found out I had a MC last Wed and had a D&C last Thursday. Wow it has defiantly been a much more emotional journey than I thought it would be, esp as the 8 weeks I was pregnant seemed to be full of dramas with continual tests etc. Yesterday I just wept as I had such bad cramps and back ache and I was nervous about returning to work today, though it actually made me feel a little better.
The thought of trying again is scary and to be honest at this stage I am not sure I want to go through it again as the past 8 weeks have been some of the most emotional of my life, esp as work was also mighty stressful. Arggghh. BUT I do live in hope that next time will be a lot smoother and 'normal' and I do look forward to having a bundle of joy!
As my brother wrote on my card with a beautiful bunch of flowers...'chin up'. : )