Sterla, it's hard when you feel pressured. I think it's pretty normal for grandparents to be keen to baby sit, but it is also common for mums to feel unsure about leaving their babies.

As far as bfing goes, babies tend to go longer between feeds when mum's not there, and at that age I would expect Oliver could go for a few hours without bfs if you were apart. So if you wanted to do it, I am sure it would be fine. But the thing is, if you don't want to do it, you're not going to enjoy your "break" anyway. You need to feel ready, and one day you will.

I do think it's important for partners to have some couple time without the baby, but this could also be spent at home when baby is asleep if you are going to be more relaxed than being out. I am sure that at same point you will feel like you are able to go out without Oliver for a longer period, and the first time is always the hardest. Once you've done it once, you will probably find it gets easier. But it's perfectly ok for you to pick when that first time is, at a time when you are more comfortable with it.

I am not sure how to stop people pressuring you, but perhaps you could point out that this is a decision you need to make on your own, and the more they pressure they apply the more you are going to feel uncomfortable with leaving him. Best of luck with it hun.