you're not useless at all but it does all get totally overwhelming some days.

you're doing an awesome job to perservere with bfing - it's tough enough at the start without any problems & yet you've kept going through just about everything that could be thrown at you

it's hard when they go from being 'sleepy' to being more aware of what's going on around them & really fighting sleep. DS did it (and still does)...in fact, to combat it recently he's been feeding to sleep for his days sleeps (blissful....naughty mummy that i am!) but this morning he just wouldn't...so i had to go through lots of crying till he fell asleep in my arms (i won't use CC or CIO methods)....before i could put him down to sleep. also, i found that early on it was easy to get him to sleep in the pram bassinet, then he went through a stage of only sleeping in my arms before he decided that the pram bassinet was okay...i'd just try every so often & one day he didn't wake up screaming when he was put down. bonus!

okay, i'm going round in circles, but what i was trying to say there was that in my very limited experience so far, they change what they like/want with regards to sleep (usually just when you think you have it all under control) and you just need to try something different until you find what works.

also, i had someone comment last week that my DS was so nice & peaceful in his pram & that her kids had never done that. but that was early in the shopping trip & within 15 minutes i was carrying him because he was crying in his pram - so even if other people look like they have calm, quiet babies they might not be 5 minutes from now!

i found going for walks saved my sanity when i started to get frustrated. a combination of being out of the house & those lovely exercise endorphins really did the trick

anyway, that's all very garbled but i just wanted to say that you're doing a great job, you're perfectly normal & not all calm looking babies are always that way!

now, i think i might go & have a shower because it's officially afternoon & i'm still in my pjs!