Thank you all so so much for your replies, it really helps to have your support and to know that I am not alone! I really felt terrible yesterday and was also angry at myself for acting the way I did, as well as feeling angry towards DD. She just really knows how to push my buttons when I am already at the end of my tether. I did have a little chat with her last night and I said sorry for getting so angry. She also said sorry Mummy and gave me a big kiss and cuddle. We then spent lots of one on one time together last night after DS was in bed, just drawing and playing with stickers, so hopefully she knows I still love her!

My lovely DH (who was home studying for an exam he sat last night) was home yesterday luckily and he took time out of his study to watch the kids so I could go out for an hour and get a coffee ON MY OWN! (I think that is the first time I have been on my own all year!) and that helped to calm me down. I was shaking I was so angry and frustrated!

I am hoping today will be better, although I am anticipating a rough time when we go out in public as she will want the dummy, so I will just have to try and be strong. I can be as stubborn as she can be (bad combo hey!). I was up 2 hourly with the baby last night so we'll see how my patience withstands today....