Botheration. I must have jinxed myself by saying Angus is sleeping better. He had a shocker of a night, I feel like death warmed up this morning and then I had an email from my closest GF who went to live in China 4 mths ago. Had a quiet sob... but thanks to you wonderful girls I know all this is normal, that I'm not a bad or not coping mum and tomorrow will be a new day.