Oh hon, I hope you're feeling a bit better today. I know what it's like when sleep deprivation makes you teary. Sometimes I think it feels worse if your bub has improved a bit sleep-wise and then goes back to sleeping horribly - physically your body has gotten used to having a bit more sleep and it's harder to suddenly get less again, and emotionally it's bewildering that your baby has suddenly forgotten how to sleep.

We're still having terrible sleeps, I've just resigned myself to it for the moment. One thing I'm struggling with at the moment is the choice to resettle in the middle of the night or not to. I'm lucky with Bonnie because although she's sleeping terribly at the moment, she always wants to sleep (she doesn't fight it) and is a good self-settler for her naps and her big nighttime sleep. I also am pretty confident that if I re-settled her in the middle of the night that she would go to back to sleep - it's just that it would take longer than giving her a feed.

So for nightwaking, my decision to feed her is selfish because a)it only takes 10 mins and we're both back asleep again and b) if I re-settle her, it could take 30 mins and I'd have to be out of bed in the cold and will be all awake once she's asleep again, so could take me some time to get back to sleep again.

Thus, it's all a bit of a no-brainer - do whatever works so that both of us can have the maximum amount of sleep at night. But, I wonder (worry) that all I'm doing is reinforcing bad sleeping habits and that Bonnie will never be able to sleep through the night (or for a decent stretch) without booby.