The newborn weeks for me, were really hard.

In fact, they were horrendous. PND hit me like a freight train almost from the moment my hormones kickstarted labour. and i found that really scary as i had no hint of a depressive illness in my life beforehand.

I just wanted to run. i now have moments of serious shame about that and just wish that i didnt have to experience the PND. without i know that i would of had awesome fun! i did a great job with DD!

No one can ever really tell you what it is like, really. It either comes across as a 'horror' story or as a big whinge and nothing more. I think that is why for me joining a mothers group was my saving grace. here i was able to just be. to be with other girls that could barely string a sentence together due to tiredness, we could cry together and laugh together (there was one week where 2 of us managed to stand in cat vomit in the middle of the night on the way to a feed LOL!).

All i can hope for if i do have another baby is to not get pnd!! and also hope that DH will have time off from work, and that i can just be a bit more chillax overall. because 2 years in on this mummy train and i just cant get enough of my gorgeous gal!