Thanks so much Maz.
This is exactly what I needed to read!

I have begun to feel so ugly and disgusting lately especially as I have just seen the photos we had taken at Celeste's baptism on the weekend. I knew my blub hung down but I didnt realise it was so obvious even with clothes on. I almost cried when I saw those photos and this is 3months after the surgery. I am grateful to have had the caesarian as it saved her life and probably mine also but I am still devestated that I missed out on a VB.
I am still so itchy and get that searing burning pain all the time. My Gunt (lol I love that name) is also very crooked because it was such an emergency that I have a very funny pubic hair line with some above the scar on one side but far below it on the other side. Plus there is the verandah where the skin is in an ugly purple welt like I was stitched up like a wheat sack. Not to mention the smelly, sweaty part where the air never breathes. AB excercises are painful and I think my core muscles are affected with more back pain these days plus leaking!!! which people think only happens with a VB also.

I feel so small when people joke about how hard birth is and brag about it like I am less of a mother for having had one. I really do take it very personally. My bf said at least all my 'bits' are the same. That was like a kick in the guts too. Yeah my woo hoo looks the same but who sees that??? You cant tell in the baptism photos that my V-j is still the same!!!

Ah, its great to know Im normal for feeling all this. I was beginning to think I was being overdramatic thinking this way about my CS.