Persionaly i never go into labour wanting drugs but with DD i had gas and peth(didnt ask for that tho) and with DS i had the epi. I felt like a faluire too when i had the epi. but to be honest, i'm glad i did have it other wise i dont reckon i could have got him out because i was so tired from labouring without any drugs for nearly 2 days.

it's really up to you on what you decide but you shouldn't feel guilty for your choices and noone should have any decision on them either except you. as long as bub comes kicking and screaming into this world then you have done best job you could have done, no matter what choices you made.