i was the opposite i didnt want anyone other then DH and my mum kinda just came in and i didnt feel liek i coudl ask her to leave. i did want to be watched. i have this thing where if people r watching me i thnk about how i should be acting, like was i screaming in pain too much or was i not showing that it was hurting enough or were the noises i was makin sounding stupid iykwim.