Not that I want to justify this but my pregnancy did not occur at the best time financially for my partner and I. In answer to why I didn't save for a midwife if that was the birth I wanted.

It is pretty bad that women have to pay so much for this option anyway.
Look my previous labours and births were heading in the right direction until medically intervened with, these are my experiences.

My doula is very experienced and I am well read on birth, as well as having had 3 previous pregnancy's, labours, births. I attend all my antenatal visits and have my blood pressure checked, urine, have had ultrasounds, bloods for GD, a liver condition I knew I didnt have etc etc.

Have syntocinon on hand etc. I Know how to transfer to a hospital as well

I know things can go wrong and I am not being naieve. I am sick of being made to feel like I have to walk around in fear and anguish of my life and baby's life. I thought birth was a natural process.

Should I forgo birthing my baby at home and go to a public hospital because I don't have the finances for a midwife? Because that is getting a little political and discrimatory.