I am because I am worried about everything that could go wrong. I have been pretty up and down about it all pregnancy but I think I am even more indecisive now that I have only 2 weeks to go.

I am petrified of the hospital system because I know me and I know that I will not be able to advocate for myself (even though I know I will have my doula with me) I don't want what has happened in the past to happen again. My doula has had some problems with obs and midwifes in hospital system because of sticking up for her clients and I dont want that drama while I am in labour. I just wish I could be more self assertive and vocalise what I want and not be ignored.