Thanks for your Info Kelly, and great advice You are totally right in what you say. I was naive in the sense that i did think that the Drs were in control of the birth, but in the end, it is my birth, my body and my baby. I think watching some birth dvd's may help put my mind at ease. As i have always feared birth, and i know that this is not a healthy way of thinking. A doula definately sounds like a great idea too, my DH was too busy looking after me during my cs, and missed out on the birth/photos/video etc.