Terrified. It didn't help that my ob told me I had a large baby and I had a small pelvis, plus the added worry of fibroids in the birth canal. If it was a c/s and a fibroid was cut during that, then yep, I'd be leaving Earthside.

I carried the fear through the early stages of labour, into the hospital and for the first few hours. Gas didn't work, pethadine did bugger all and they couldn't get the epidural into my back. At that point, about four hours before DD was born, my head space changed. I was in agony and tired, but I told myself "Only you can do this. You're going to do it." And it killed the fear and I did it! DD was born with a bit of forceps help!