While I was put back together again and having the blood draining bag attached to me, Lennon was being held by Paul and all of the staff in the theatre were congratulating us, kissing us, shaking our hands and saying “well done”, “congratulations” and “aww he’s beautiful” to me. I was shaking really bad and being sick for about half an hour and Paul was really worried until one of them said that this was perfectly normal. It really was like a whirlwind from when I got in the car on the way to the hospital up until I had him.
As I was wheeled out of theatre, I was lying flat on the bed with Lennon next to me with Paul walking behind and I heard a woman (who we walked past) say quite loudly “aww isn’t he a beautiful baby?” and I thought “yes he is”. I was wheeled into the recovery room for a good hour maybe a little longer and we were talking to a woman in there (who took the photo of me lying on the bed with Lennon lying next to me and Paul sitting next to me) and a woman came to the door and said “i’ve got your mum here shall I let her in” and we didn’t know whether she meant my mum or Paul’s mum so in walks my mum and Paul says to her “here’s your grandson” and she cried. She was in Derby shopping and thought she would come and see how I was doing but obviously no-one could tell her anything without my permission but I wasn’t asked or anything. I should have really told them that if my mum or dad called or came to the hospital, that it was fine by me for them to see me and know how i’m doing etc. Only one person was allowed in the recovery room and mum said that my little sister Ruby who is 14 was downstairs waiting for mum as she wasn’t allowed in but they both hung around the cafe I think for a bit and came to see me when I was on the post-natal ward. My sister and mum were both proud as punch
Well there it is. That’s the end of my birth story. My terrible and traumatic birth experience has left me both physically and emotionally scarred for life as well as given me very severe Post Natal Depression and a Post Traumatic Stress Disorder almost 2 years on! I have tried many times to try and get my head round what happened and tried to move on but it’s not happened. I don’t think i’ll ever get over it, unless I could go back to the day when it happened and make sure things were done different like having him normally. I can't even go anywhere near the hospital, like if I know we are going somewhere and we would have to go past it we have to take another route
Your a brave lady Nat....im sorry you had to go through all that. Lennon is a special boy and i look forward to getting to know you both much better in the Nov 06 group.
Sorry to hear of your disappointing birth. They really can affect you dramatically cant they
I had a little girl on 5/11/06 and there were lots of issues with that birth that i had to deal with. But it wasnt until i had another little girl 4 mths ago that i understood the full effects of what was going on.
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