My boys.....warning - may be upsetting for some.

[Haylian]

That is both the most beautiful and the most hearbreaking post I have ever read.

I am sorry for your loss but I am joyous about your little boy. Congratulations on the birth of your little boy

[brenwest1]

Spring,
I am so sorry for your lose!
I too lost a baby but in very different circumstances. I totally know what you went through and I am still not over that experience and probably never will be. My obstetrician was an awful person too and sounds very much like yours.

I have a beautiful 2 yo now. She had complications when she was born but I knew her sister was up in Heaven helping her out.

Your boys would be so very proud of you!

Love to you xxx

[Cookie Monster]

I don't know how you can still breath after going through what you have. I've never had to go through anything like you have, you are a truely amazing women. Like everyone else who has read this I'm in tears and it has made me think just how very blessed I am. I'm just so sorry that things like this happen both the health care side and for your precious son.

[Dragonbub]

I too was completely moved by your experience. What a wonderful tribute for your son's, the love you so obviously feel for them and the pain and suffering you were dealt with at the hands of a sterile medical professional. I know you will never forget, but you will see your baby's smile in the clouds and sunshine, and hear their laughter in the wind, knowing they are with you for the rest of your life. Thankyou so much for sharing this with us,

[Alyssas_Mum]

Reading your story bought tears to my eyes, i just wanted to hug you. You are such a strong woman being able to tell your story and i'm very thankful for the experiene you have shared with us all. Congratulations on giving birth to both your baby boys you have so much courage, well done and i wish you all the best.

[[M]umma[M]ia]

omg, im sobbing like a baby right now. What a great story, im so proud of you. I was so happy to read the end bit i cried even more, but happy tears. Oh hun, well done!! xoxox

[Chocaholic]

Thank you.

[Muffy]

To this day, and for the rest of my life I will remember how sweet he smelt, like a never ending horizon of roses, a river of the sweetest honey, his smell, I can smell it now.

as soon as i read that i lost it, i bawled for the rest of the story...
you are an amazing person for being able to share that with all of us.
your DH must be so proud of you!
xx

[tsgirl]

Thank you for sharing Spring.

I am adding my tears to the many that have been shed for your pain, your strength and your triumph.

Your boys are truly blessed to have such a wonderful Mummy and Daddy.

[kristi14]

Thankyou for sharing your story with us, it must have been hard.

You have so much strength its unbeleivable.

[renson]

Dearest Spring,

Your story is so special. One that i will never forget. I was sobbing from the start to the end. Your words made me feel as if i was there with you, holding your hand. Harry will be so proud of you, his daddy and his little brother.
You have really touched my heart. You write beautifully.

[~clover~]

Wow. You went through so much & came so far.
You are amazing. I don't know if I would've come through that.
Congratulations on little Oliver.
Rest in Peace little Harrison.
Thankyou you so much for sharing such an inspiring story.

[OceanPrincess]

Hi Spring

Just read your stories for the first time... wanted to say I have tears in my eyes and I am amazed at how corageous you were.

What an experience.

[Taurean]

That is the most beautiful and incredible story I have ever read. I'm covered in goosebumps and I have tears in my eyes. What an amazing and inspiging woman you are. You're story made me really realise I'm pregnant and connect with the tiny baby that is growing inside me. I'm moved beyond belief - thank you

[tellytubby]

What an incredible, incredible woman you are.

[Talia*L]

Dear Spring.

Thank you so much for your story - like many others, it made me cry and cry. It also made me SO ANGRY my blood was boiling over the way some staff behaved. And cry again at how amazing your DH is.

But also, it has helped me understand the story of my grandmother. I have always known that, in the early 1960s, she discovered her 4th baby had died, and she had to deliver him naturally, knowing that he was dead. I don't think she ever properly recovered - she fostered, then adopted, another boy soon after. That boy (my step-uncle) was from a troubled background, and died of AIDS in the 80s. She has always been an emotionally cold woman, and I had never really considered that she simply may never have recovered from the loss of her little son. I am sure no help was offered, no counselling. She also divorced from her husband soon after.

thank you for your story - I am sure that it has helped so, so many people.

[Spring Angel]

Talia, Thank you for your post.

The very sad reality was that back in the 60's women how had stillborn babies weren't afforded the same opportunity to grieve as we are now encouraged to do. I spoke with a woman in the same age group as you grandmother who lost her daughter. The hospital staff didn't even let her see her daughter and she was wisked away. Her Husband still hasn't even spoken her daughters name.

I don't know how these ladies survived. I immersed myself in my grief and I think it was the most healthy thing to do.

If you think appropriate, reach out to your Grandmother. Ask her about your Uncle, she may be so relieved that finally someone wants to know his story or she may not want to talk at all but it's worth a try.

Lv Spring

[Mad Scientist]

Your story is beautiful. I'm shedding tears of sadness and joy. Thank you so much for sharing x