I think there are lots of reasons we don't share so much.
Sometimes maybe we just don't want to face it ourselves.
I don't like mentioning the forceps (IRL at least) because that becomes the focus (possibly that's just my perception). But honestly that wasn't the worst part by a long shot.

Anyway, I hope you're being better cared for now Dusty And don't feel guilty - with things like birth, the end result and the process are almost entirely separate things.