I know I have said before how hard it was to breastfeed my daughter for 6.5 months with chronic breast refusal due to severe refluxing and pain association with my breasts that no LC, midwife, nurse could get us past. It was devastating. I was told at 9 weeks pregnant but the docs that they thought she would be incompatible with life so after a traumatic pregnancy I felt so relieved that she was alive and well, that why should I be complaining about my daughters refluxing and feeding issues. I knew it was best for her, and was so heartbreaking and frustrating everytime not knowing whether she would latch, or stay on for longer than 30 seconds. She would be screaming and crying and so would I, even though I tried to stay calm. In the end, the decision was made for me as she was losing weight rapidly, her growth in length was stunted, she was at physio because she was behind in milestones and had incredibly tense muscles so could not isolate individual muscles as she was tense from not wanting to feed every breastfeed and I had been diagnosed with PND, aswell as no sleep as was up all night trying to feed her to try and get her to put on weight and get her to sleep.

I know this doesn't help your situation at all but just know that I care and understand a bit of what you are going through with the breast refusal.