I know it's worth it, I hate whinging, I love being his Mummy, but breastfeeding was something I was looking forward too and it's been so hard. i keep waiting for it to get better and it will for a week, then it's just same crap different day.. i want to enjoy the relationship because it's the only one I'll have and when it's over, it's over.. I don't want it to be a battle to the end but days like this I don't want to keep going.