Oh jun you are doing SUCH an amazing job!! I don't know how I would handle all you have been and are going through. I've had breast refusal to some extent with all of mine at some point and with the last 2 gave up feeding from the left side eventually coz it was just to stressful so I understand the lopsided thing! I know you didn't ask for advise but I honestly found for my self confidence (and so its less likely to go super saggy from wrong size bra for months!) That getting a bra filler pad thing for my 'crappy side' really helped once is completely stopped that side, just a thought. Hang in there