We are having massive issue with breast refusal. DS is tube fed overnight, but should be BF through the day. He wont. There's nothing I haven't tried. I have spoken to LC's, ABA and LA leche league counsellors. It's doing my head in. He is ready for solids but I don't want to start while we have this issue. I am trying to find the balance between making sure he gets enough and stays hydrated and letting him be hungry/thirsty enough to want the breast. It's become such a battle and I'm tired. I am setting daily goals. Today he took 2 small feeds (only about 7 mins if that), but I am still expressing. Tomorrow, well, I hope I can get through tomorrow too. I am going to an ABA meeting Tuesday, so I that's my next goal. To get to Tuesday. This has been going on now on and off for 2 months. I am trying to pinpoint what it is and I can't.. I just want it fixed. He is such an easy going happy baby except for when I offer him boob. He's not in pain, he doesn't have reflux. TBH I am not looking for advice, just support. Tell me this will get better. Tell me that we can still have a good breastfeeding relationship. He is going to be my only baby, I'm not ready to give up yet. But god, it's hard. I hate expressing. I hate it when he screams just because my nipple has touched his mouth. I hate that he's happy sucking the dummy or his hands, but wont take boob. I hate that when he does attach I am terrified to move in case I interrupt it. I hate that I'm not enjoying it, because I am timing the feed to try and figure out if he's getting enough.. *Sigh.. I think that's enough complaining.. I have gotten through today. I can get through tomorrow..
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