You can get through this BAL! It won't last forever. The ABA group will be a great place to start. You and J have come through much harder battles than breast refusal and beaten them.

How is his growth coming along? I know it's not a comparison, but DD2, who is about the same age corrected is really only feeding once or twice between 6pm and 6am. If she was tube fed overnight that would really cut down her day time feeding too! Maybe J is getting a lot of what he needs atm through the tube? What is the plan with tube feeds going forward?