Jennifer13 - We are hoping that once he starts solids we can cut tube feeding a bit. I am going to do a combo of BLW and puree, but I have been reluctant to start him while all this refusal has been happening. I feed him probiotic powder mixed with EBM on a spoon. He sees the spoon coming and he gets excited. He watches me eat and reaches out. He's sooo ready!


Thanks to everyone so much for the support. We are still going and things are a bit better. He fed yesterday and has fed today.. Yay! I went to an ABA meeting today. It was good. It was only a small group so even though the topic was BF in the Early Days, we still had time to discuss other stuff. Like breast refusal lol! I practically dominated the group with my questions etc.. They were all fantastic and very encouraging. There was a woman there who exclusively expressed and bottle fed for 10 weeks then finally her baby latched and they have been going well since and he's 11 months now! That gave me hope. She was told that she couldn't BF but persisted and it paid off.

That's what I want.. Many people are giving me permission to give up (If that makes sense). They think they are being supportive, but I need support and encouragement to keep going! I WANT to breastfeed. If I wanted to bottle feed I would be. Anyway, I feel really supported by the ABA, and DS's still gaining weight so I have relaxed a bit for now! Thank Goodness. It's awful feeling the way I was.. I guess I have the fear that he'll never come back to the breast..

ETA: I'm also taking him to another osteo today. He does craniosacral therapy which I've heard people swear by when it comes to bubs.. Fingers crossed!