Alot of wonderful posts here, I hope you can find some peace. Just a thought & discard it if you want - perhaps try looking at BF, EBM (yours or other peoples) and formula as food/milk & that is all? Just a source to fill your DD up from what she doesn't intake in food. It may help to take out the emotion of not being able to bf as successful as you'd like at this point in time? And like you said, it might be just a small break and once your hormones settle she might go back to bf more. Look after yourself - emotionally I mean. Sushee made excellent points in her post.