Thanks ladies for your support - it is so awesome to be so well supported in such an emotional time...
Kmn - good suggestion. I did try Willow again on the breast today, she actually latched alright and then she gave up, but I will try it once a day just to see how things go...
Hope - Thank you hun for sharing your story, sounds like you have been on quite a journey with your two little guys. It's funny how we have landed in the same place with our bubs, especially given we were both on a similar TTC journey. Thank you for your support and I hope that by sharing your story here that you feel better about your situation. I think for us, it will get easier, there will be times when it hurts and you will feel emotional about it. I had a breakdown tonight... But in my heart of hearts I know that I don't have the supply to sustain Willow, and I guess the important thing is to take each day as it comes. I think you hit the nail on the head about judgement, why are people (other women in particular) so quick to judge mothers? I am nervous about feeding her in public, I am not sure I am strong enough to take the "your bottle feeding your baby" looks...