Thanks MadB!
CeCe - wow, thank you for sharing your story, I really appreciate it! Like with Hope! it's always nice to know you are not alone and that this isn't such a lonely road.
I feel like I have turned a corner, my LC came out for her last visit today and she weighed Willow - my little girl put on over 500g in 9 days, now I know that switching to the bottle was the right thing, I am still putting her to the breast once or twice a day as Kmn suggested, but I am trying to be a little less stressed about the whole thing. I have no doubt I will have my moments especially when I first go to the new parents group, but at the same time I have to rest easy knowing that I have done the right thing especially when I can see how well she's thriving. It's so funny as this experience has made me realise how naive and judgemental I was before I became a mother myself and I will NEVER judge another mother again... It's been a rather humbling journey, and like this community I have had so much support IRL and that has been a huge part of getting through this and with every day that goes by I get a little stronger...
Hope - how are you doing hun? I told my LC about the bottle feeding in public thing and she said don't worry noone really feeds in public before 10 weeks anyway and by then you'd be suprised that people won't judge - CeCe's post was a perfect example of this, I guess we are harder on ourselves than others are...