firstly congratulation on you beautiful little man!!!! and well done for your labour and going through an emergency c-section, that must have been really scary!
im sorry you didnt get to have that skin to skin bonding with him in the early days but im sure you made up for since then!! i think alot of people have problems after experiences like yours and i hope you get some good advice from someone who has been in your shoes. and are able to get your head around it and even go on to atempt a vbac!! hugs to you