Perhaps your best bet would be to make an appointment to see someone who can advise you on this. Whether it be a midwife or OB at a PH or a private OB who will practice at a PH or a GP. I respect your decision. I hope you get what you want. Oh, and welcome to BB. Your first thread has not been a very welcoming one, but I hope you go on to form some good relationships here. There are many women who will give you good advice. I hope you get some sleep tonight. Trust that everything will turn out the way it should.