Kelly, the fact that he doesn't want to leave YOU probably means that it isn't the CCC itself. That's not necessarily going to change even if you move him. He is probably feeling the separation so much more with everything that's been going on. And so must you be!! No wonder you feel guilty... You are doing your very best, Kel, stop beating yourself up.

I hope you find a way to work with him so that you can still get work done and he is a bit more happy. Your routine sounds somewhat like what I have with my DD, she now has 2 days at preschool, one day with a friend (we do a swapsies - so I have her DS the next day) and one day with just me. We just added the extra preschool day 'cause her nanny has gone o/s. It might be worth looking into the cost of a nanny if you can share it with someone else or they are registered (you get something back, but not as much back as you do for CC). But in my experience, it took my DD longer to adjust to having me in the house but not with her, than it did for her to be away from me at preschool. She loved it once she'd gotten used to it (and so did I, 'cause it meant I could still see her throughout the day and the nanny did chores for us!), but it was an adjustment.