I'm glad I posted this. Thank you everyone.... whilst it can be draining and sometimes frustrating parenting this way, it is the best way for our babies. I just need to look at DD and see how awesome she is and what she's doing.

Another annoying thing happened earlier when I was at my ABA meeting. Lots of the mums from my MG go there too and one of them had a "bad" night last night where her DS was awake every 2 hours. She said "now we know how Sue feels" and they all laughed. Glad to know that I'm keeping everyone amused. FFS.

I'm taking a week out from human contact I think. Just need to spend some time with DD and DH to gather myself.